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Personal Reflections From My Discipleship Journey.
This is mostly a space for me to share thoughts from my personal life and discipleship journey. I tend to be a verbal processor, so having a place to organize and articulate my thoughts is helpful. If you find something I'm writing about interesting, I hope it encourages you to explore the topic further. These thoughts are simply from my own discipleship journey, and I hope they lead to more real-life conversations about these topics with the people I do life with.
Obedience
The Bible says even the demons believe there is one God (James 2:19). Clearly, belief is not the issue. It is not my belief in the existence of God which determines whether or not I am following Him; It is my decision to walk in obedience to the way of life Jesus modeled for us that demonstrates my actions are actually aligned with my deepest desires - my professed “beliefs.” You can say you believe anything you want, but your actions are what attest to what you truly believ
Merissa Erb
Jun 164 min read
Breathwork
There is a breathforce alive within us - the breath of God. From the beginning in Genesis, we read there is life breathed into us and the Biblical narrative gives multiple examples of the breath of God breathing on people to bring them back to life (in Ezekiel, His breath brings dry bones to life). I've been having conversations with people lately about the practice of breathwork (voluntarily, intentionally breathing in various patterns) and how a believer should approach th
Merissa Erb
Jun 44 min read
Dangerously Obsessed
“Have we the courage to radiate our passion in such a cynical age, to live for Jesus, “dangerously, obsessively, and undeniably? Not for money, not for fame, not for career, and not for popularity?” It’s become a wildly abnormal occurrence in our generation to meet someone who is truly obsessed with a cause, a mission, or an ideology which seems to infuse every sector of their life with passion and energy in a singular, focused direction. It seems the “cool” decision is to re
Merissa Erb
Apr 273 min read
The Manifest Presence of God
During December, I read the book "The Pursuit of God" by A.W. Tozer and I cannot recommend this book enough. Tozer's book spoke to a longing I've experienced my whole life to experience the presence of God more fully. There have been moments in my life when I have encountered the Holy Spirit in unsettling, tangible ways. After these moments of real encounter with the presence of God, I've wondered how often I have the opportunity to experience the manifest presence of God and
Merissa Erb
Apr 273 min read
Freed and Forgiven
I've struggled for years with fear and anxiety. When I was a kid, I had so many fears - the house burning down, the world ending, the dark... You name it and I was probably scared of it. A few years later and I started struggling with 'deeper fears' regarding love, belonging, and God's heart towards me. I was constantly in fear of making the "wrong" decisions, not being worthy of being loved by the Father, and of somehow missing my purpose in life. Anyone who has moved in fea
Merissa Erb
Apr 273 min read
On Suffering
“My soul is elastic, like a balloon. It can grow larger through suffering.” In North American culture, I think we often treat suffering as something to rush past, get through, and “heal from” as quickly as possible. Other worldviews see suffering as an expected part of the human experience, but we have somehow taught ourselves in America to firmly believe the world owes us a life of peace, prosperity, and happiness. I believe in this, we've done ourselves a great disservice.
Merissa Erb
Apr 275 min read
Fasting
During the month of September, I practiced fasting as a spiritual and physical practice on Fridays. I was hesitant to try this practice, even though it has been a core practice of followers of Jesus for thousands of years, because I was just worried about the practical effects on my life. I didn’t want a day of low energy, poor work-outs, and general angst. Laughable, I know, but this was how I honestly felt about fasting. I’m aware fasting (from food, specifically) can be
Merissa Erb
Apr 273 min read
No shoes
During the last few months, I’ve had several experiences with the Holy Spirit. As a follower of Jesus, I believe we are designed to meet with the Creator of the Universe and experience His presence in real, tangible ways. This month, I’ve experienced the Holy Spirit multiple times very intensely. I’m not going to try and describe it, or say exactly how this experience should be, or what it’s like, because I truly believe every individual is unique in their design and will exp
Merissa Erb
Apr 273 min read
Longing for Community
Why am I going to church? What’s the point? It’s 2024. Doesn’t the idea of “Church” seem a little outdated to you? A little irrelevant? Why should I go to an event with sub-par music when I can go to an actual concert? I like to question things. I think most of my generation likes to question things. We aren’t content to do things for the sake of tradition, or for the sake of habit. It feels stifling, insincere and incongruent with the message we are constantly inundated wit
Merissa Erb
Apr 274 min read
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